When I had a home, I owned this picture that I kept on the wall and said “Just imagine when the sun comes through”. Yesterday, someone told me to calm down. To close my eyes and think of a rainbow… a forest… a lake. And it helped. It did.
I wonder why is it then that [...]
I look at the calendar upon the wall and suddenly my heart misses a beat. A year went by. Dear Goddess, how can that be ? A full year ? Where have I been ? What have I been doing with myself ?
It’s true that life is unfair sometimes. But oh Goddess she has been [...]
Tired of feeling sorry for myself again I noticed Guy Goodman would be playing at JSP’s new Jazz-n-Dreams club. I digged in my closet for a proper dress. Lol - there’s no such thing. I chose what looked like the most appropriate, bought a pair of ballerinas at Shiny Things and off I went.
Mr. Goodman [...]
He looked at me with his deep eyes and told me I owed him a hug. I smiled and hugged him. Then he kissed me, and I offered myself entirely.
Time went by. Today, I know I fell in love for the last time. From now own, my heart will never belong to someone else [...]
I know you are back. I know you’re trying to haunt me. I know sometimes you will succeed and others you won’t. It depends on me only. Sometimes I will be able to deal with that, other times not really. There are days I enjoy playing cat and mouse, other days I don’t. There are [...]
Like a rollercoast, that’s how I feel. Walking over fluffly clouds some days and others on the darkest labirynth. Tired of this. Want my normal life back. But then againa… would I be able to live just a plain, common, normal life ?
I honestly can’t tell. What I do know is that I feel tired. [...]
The path that I’ve chosen is filled-up with light beams. There are some dark spots here an there, perfectly identifiable, and they only mean I have neglected my RL work and will need to make an extra effort now to catch up. Nothing really beyond my strenghts.
I sleep at night without a single regret. I [...]
I know there’s been winter somewhere. Honestly, I remember fall - and I remember it quite well, a long, hurtful fall and me sufocating beneath the dead leaves falling from the trees.
I woke up now to this rainy spring time. I see flowers strting to blossom everywhere. a deep green over the prairies because fo [...]
A recent conversation suddenly crossed my mind. Five months had passed since we had our last talk. And there you were, trying to “start over where we had stopped”. “Let’s forget the last episode,” you said. Lolololol
You know what ? Being in love is not enjoying how special the other one makes us feel. Being [...]
Standing there on the empty colourless desert, not knowing where to go. Wanted to go nowhere. Then, I started listening to some musical notes. At first, I thought they came from the very inside of me, an echo of long forgotten songs.
As it became clearer, I realised it came from a point ahead and made [...]
